FREE WRITING 101

The truth is I don't know anymore. And I'm not even thinking hard enough to actually be sure. I'm just tired. Really tired. I'm currently in the living room, wearing nothing but my purple silk robe. I just came from NGC, or as our idiot of a mayor calls it, the People's House. I jogged, for a good 15 minutes. I walked my way there and then walked my way home too. The road was unusually brighter, they've built another lamppost, kudos to the idiotic mayor.

My thoughts are kinda scattered. My emotions are, too. Most of the time I am relaxed, at peace, but there are instances when I feel like going crazy-----

---so I stood up and went out into the balcony, it's so humid these days. Everywhere around the house feels like an oven toaster.

Now I'm out, and our dogs are annoying me. I tried so hard not to care for these creatures since my favorite Porthos and Athos died. I wanted to have them thrown somewhere far actually, because they keep multiplying, and nobody in this house is really taking care of them. Since lolo died, nobody gives them a bath anymore. And I have this feeling that if I care too much for them, one of them is going to die on me again. So I'd rather not.

It's not too cool, the breeze I mean. But it's a lot better out here than anywhere inside. I can hear Gerald Anderson's voice from where I am. Lola's in her room now, she's probably tired. I'm just trying to kill time.

I feel empty, it's been over a month since I left Arvin. I've been trying to prove my strength since. Been fluttering around, testing my strength and ridding myself of my loser genes. I've probably mutated by now. I feel alright, not too broken, but not complete either.

I get by each day, I'm mastering the art of getting by, as a matter of fact. There are nights when my thoughts are so hazy I get angry, but there are also mornings when things are just so clear you feel like you wanna do everything you should do all at once. I thank the heavens for every bit of clarity.

My hair is still wet. It's been two hours since I took a shower but I tied my hair so, it's no surprise it's still wet till now.

The back of my neck hurts when I bow my head, I fear it might be caused by my cholesterol level. I should have my blood pressure checked.

Speaking of health, I got a call from the company I'm working for, they told me that my medical results are out and I have to go the clinic, I feel there's something wrong with my health. I'm guessing I'm anemic or acidic, or just plainly neurotic, haha.

Not exactly a good joke, not even a joke at all.

Wow. I'm amazed, this is totally free writing, but somehow, my brain managed to not write the one thing that really bothers me. Haha. Really amazing.

I should stop. I should turn off the TV, drink another glass of water, have another shower, work on the last few pages of my friend's book and then hit the sack earlier than usual.

I got through another day, I know I'll make it through another night.

I'm tough like that. And I have a big day tomorrow. I should go.