Extinguished

I am an extinguished fire.

I have always been the type whom people would assume to be someone strong and capable. For so long, I thought  of myself that way too. I thought that every difficulty that people go through is just like a hump on the road or an obstacle in a racing field, just give it some time and you'll get through it. But with the way things go for me right now, it's like as if all those dreams that I've spent so much time and energy dreaming about are nothing but faded memories of a dreamer who's finally awake and aware that some things are just too far from becoming possible.

I've always been positive, no matter what situation I get myself into, I've always managed to come out of it stronger and better than ever. But this, whatever this is, is totally different. At times I'm hoping it's just a phase, but most of the time, I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle and even if this is just a phase, I feel like it's a phase I will never be able to surpass.

They say the world is like a spinning wheel and that whether you are at the bottom or the top, you won't be there forever. I however, feel like I am down and that I am bound to stay here forever. Unmoving, frozen at the bottom.

An extinguished fire, yes that would be me.

I used to withstand the powerful winds of life, I used to manage to keep the fire burning. This time, albeit, I have been put out and I don't think I'd ever be able to rekindle the fire that had once fueled me to go on despite the winds of life that's been dragging me back.